Turning Fears into Goals

Day 30 - Today has been a rough day and I am exhausted!  I did a long cardio and strength training workout this morning with yet another of my Leslie Sansone Walk-Away-The-Pounds videos.  (Can't recommend her videos enough)!  I feel it in my thighs every time I sit or stand and my arms are pretty sore, too.  However, it was my hectic day that really drained me.

I don't know what I was thinking with my big fantasy of the kids being home for the summer.  I don't know if I was imagining I was going to magically be a kid too?  Long, lazy days swimming and relaxing?  I forgot all the chauffeuring I would be doing, the constant disruptions, the endless dishes and the difficulty completing tasks with so many distractions.

Today, I had to take my daughter to volleyball practice, then pick her up two hours later, grocery shop and spend several hours on the phone with different work issues (most of that time I was on hold).  Luckily I was able to multitask and get some computer work done while holding, but I am looking forward to going to bed early tonight.

For the record, yesterday my calorie count came in at 1520.  I have to admit, I was a bit hungry when I went to sleep, which surprised me.  I was too tired to go get food though so I figured I wasn't that hungry!   Counting calories isn't my favorite thing to do, but it's not actually that bad.  I can sustain this for a week or two and see if it helps my efforts on the scale.

I saw a meme on fb yesterday (I love memes!) from Colleen St. Michaels.  She is fantastic!  Check her out if you are interested in angel messages, readings or guidance of that style.  Anyway, her post said:  "My Fears don't limit me they become my New Goals"!  Yes!  Exactly!

I feel this way so much as I try to figure out web hosting, SEO practices, understanding the differences with self-hosted vs. free hosted blogs and domain names and hosts.  Ugh!  My head was spinning last night and I wanted to cry.  Instead I thought of what I read and realized, that I need to just breathe and take it day by day.  Yes, I am super intimidated, but I will get there.  One small fear turned into a goal at a time.

For some reason I felt compelled to end with some pictures of "my gym".  Ugly beautiful!  Making the most of what I've got and somehow making it all work.  Focusing on what I have and not what I don't.  Working on striving for showing up and doing my best instead of being paralyzed by the myth of perfection.  I took the ugliest place in our house and claimed it for myself!  I use it to workout and when I actually "fix up" to do my hair and makeup.  Maybe it's my "she-cave"?



Until next time...  Be well!
~Tracy

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