Time Out!

Day 40 (41 & 42) - Guess what?  The scale finally moved.  I knew it would, which is why I weighed myself again after only one day.  172 lbs.  It finally gave me the 2 ounces I complained about yesterday.  How I knew?  Because I went to bed starving and could feel my body "eating itself".  That is a joke, but I could feel something different (in addition to being hungry).  I have to say that the protein was my missing component.

Yesterday was a very rough day in the midst of a very rough week.  In addition to my protein epiphany and subsequent resistance-attack, then the huge learning curve of trying to understand the correct way to go about this and the overwhelm with trying to track and monitor myself, I have also had a rough work week and difficulty finding balance in my personal life with all of this.

When I woke this morning, I realized that if I don't want this blog to turn into "The Summer of My Public Mental Breakdown", I need a Time Out!  So, this is me calling Time Out until Monday.  I am going to use this time to first PAUSE and let all of the stress of this experiment/project dissipate off my shoulders.  I promised my daughter and her friend that I would take them to the movies this afternoon, so that will be a good break from reality for me too.

I have to get caught up on some work, but I am only going to do what absolutely has to get done and then leave the rest until Monday.  Hopefully I can accomplish that before we leave for the movie so it can be contained and not intrude on the rest of my weekend, but if not, that's ok.

My main priority for the next 3 days is to focus on my kitchen, my dining room table mess, cleaning and rearranging my fridge and my food cupboards to try to make cooking a bit more efficient.  I am going to work on some menu planning and grocery shopping - all in an effort to better support my transition to a more protein-rich diet.  I will need a protein powder, as well or protein bars to assist me in this new dietary goal and I will want to research and make the best choice for me.  Unfortunately, for some reason, I don't tolerate whey protein powder.  I seem to do ok with the vegan though, so maybe I just need to stick with that - maybe I can find one that comes in vanilla or chocolate flavor?

Also, I will need to stock up on meat and prepare it into meal-sized portions to help decrease my kitchen time on a daily basis.  I'm sure a fun time will be had by all.  (she wrote sarcastically).  But, here's the thing - If I don't do this, I am setting myself up for frustration and failure.  My goal is to get to the other side of this where none of this requires that much thinking and becomes my new normal.  I can't just snap my fingers and get there (I reminded myself).  I need a minute to process it all and then set myself up for success.

Then, Monday, I will be ready to tackle what I will refer to as "Phase 2" of my project/experiment.  Wish me luck!

Until next time... Be well!
~Tracy



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